MW
Writing Takes Me Places
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Tap tap tap tap tap.....
Why do I subject myself to this agonizing process?
Words
Words forming sentences
Sentences formed by words.
Formation of sentences through words
Translocation of punctuation
Black letters deleted, erased, scribbled out
Put in, thrown out, highlighted, and crumpled.
A long process with no clear end in sight
With a period serving as an analogy to
what I suppose is the end of this small journey I call a piece of writing.
But my writing takes me places—and so I continue
It takes me to
Places in this world and places in another dimension
Places inside myself so I can fix the Broken
I novel to take me to a place subjected only to my own judgement.
I craft characters filled with great and terrible things
Emeralda—the face of a revolution, fueled by visions for a brighter future
Fastion—a brutal tyrant, the source of psychological trauma for otherwise
gracious characters
I craft characters so I can pretend that I can react to things the way they do
Not always logical and clear-headed and practical like how Real Life people
ought to behave
but epic and sacrificial and heroic and wonderful.
Like how Emeralda escaped the detrimental influences of a parental figure to live a more peaceful life
Like how she rode into battle, risking everything to save the life of someone
dear to her heart
I write the highs and lows in plots
So I can envision myself living a full life: the extremes, the great, the bad.
I write about joy and bliss and grief and agony
The death of someone loved by Emeralda
Successfully overthrowing Fastion
I write so I can feel as alive as my characters are.
And then I create poetry when my emotions are too great
frustrations on how what once “served as my emotional security now feeds
my pain”
confusion surrounding “recontemplating the meaning of life”
struggles with the “pitiless rules” of society
When the only way I can channel them out is through words
I let the chaos simmering inside, slowly diffuse out.
My words take me to a place where I can return to my neutral state of Functional
A place where words are free from the rigidity of grammar
Free from rules,
not all, but most except for the ones just necessary for me to read my words
again and understand.
I write to investigate questions in this world
To take me to the place of Answers
examining why people hold certain preconceptions about country music
explaining why two competing ice cream stores could survive economically
I put together my own questions, people’s opinions, my ideas, and tangible realizations
Drawing spider-webs of connections
To fix Confusion, and turn it into Understanding.
Writing takes me places
It takes me to the Known, the Unknown, the Can’t Be Known, and the Should be Known.
I write to manage my thoughts
Each idea, each question, comment, response, is written on the molecules of my consciousness
I reach out to grab hold of them
Make sense of them
Sometimes collect them into transparent jars where they can live for eternity
When the thoughts and ideas are too great
The molecules ooze from my pores
I release them out into the world to be dispersed
Diluting them or else they’d cause a cosmic explosion
—in a place where those exist.